silents.

i cant conceal my feelings. But what good is love when it keeps hurting me.

something is not right.Nothing is right at the moment.Can't think,can't speak,can't talk...silents. God is sending me signs everywhere.I wonder why.

Along the side walk

theres is nothing much to blog.School was weird,friends were high,life is okay,memories are gone,study is there,blablablabla

Ive been pretty damn tired nowdays.I dont go online much,somehow it just bore me out. Ofcourse there's some suck-up stories to read or to hear or to look-up,gossips everwhere.Oh you know i went shopping and i bought....ahh forget it.I've change. im not the hey-ho-little girl who love to laugh and jokes about alot of things no more. i really wish i could have the old me back. eversince december 2008,life has been a total crap until someone came along the way.

resolution: stop being emo-ish and go boogie down.yeaaaah!

Amer's poem.

Everyday when i wake up,
i'll see your face smiling,
ever since we broked up,
all i see is you crying.

Why did this happen to us,
why did the fate brought us together,
my heart broked like a shattered glass,
but my love for you is still forever.

It makes me sad
seeing you with another guy,
it makes me mad
when you are telling lies.

To be continue....

p/s : Writen by Amer Hakimin

isnt it awesome? :P

pleasant day

i don't aim for the moon,i aim for the stars.

You know,something just strike my mind.Im beginning to feel really really good.
I mean,im really achiving something that i though i couldnt.This is really really awesome. The word 'really' is everywhere now. Im heading somewhere good.I dont care about that stupid matter no more. Let it be,let them be.God is great and lead me straight. Im happy :) and school was Fuh-ny todaay.OMG! nat,i solute you for giving word-punch to Ros chai.She's a bitch,i know. Dayuuuum,you people should've seen the fight. HAHA. it was good to feel alive again.

Life is tough to handle.For what ive seen in these world,none of it is easy. Happy,sad,bored,tired, all of it is in me right now. I have a problem,whereby i dont share because i dont think its a big deal,But from there i knew it is now. I dont know where to go,where to cry. I dont what to do.Far and for most,i am lost.
I need a day..a day for me to think. What do i want?because trust me,the thinking..not easy.Nope! Everyday,i face it.Everyday is weird.Everyday is difficult to cop.Everyday SUCKS. Nothing goes right EVERYDAY. Its just not what you expected,its not what i expected. The only place i can lay my head on is home and my sister. Its good to know that i have someone waiting for me to come home and talk to me cause in school,to people im just a ghost,invisable...DONE

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Im tired of being patient.Im tired of giving in,all the time.In my head,i always say "alaa,its just a small problem.No biggie." well i guess i was wrong,Too wrong.Im not a ghost who fly around,Am i a paper? that has been blown by the wind and its clear that nobody ran to catch me,not even the closes one's. Im just a statue with sad smile on. Im a....

Totally rufus

So near yet so far.

I think i might have found someone. Someone that is good,someone that is sincere of what his doing and i might have a slight feelings to that stranger.Eventhough its just a moment of period that we met,the sparks is there.

Im glad,totally.

fearless

she thinks she knows someone,but she dont anymore,so why bother?


you think she's your friend or whatever shit,for all you know she's just a medivel person with a devil ears ontop with a long 3 pin stick saying "bow to me,missy.I said bow me to me.".what the fuck?

hmmm,your beautiful eyes stare right into my eyes and sometimes i think about you late at night,i dont know why.I want to be somewhere where you are.

Why cant life just get better? Im drouning in a river,will anyone save me? *long pause* i guess not.

I GOT NO REASON TO STAY.

Part of the freaking list

There are part of the list that i really miss. Every good times,i miss. Every rough times we had to go through,i miss. What else? i can't take this anymore,this pressure is too hard.

excuse me,you drop your ball.

wow,i have to say it has been a really REALLY long time since i blog.HAHA.Been busy lately.Yeah with study? Hell NO. Been busy with schools and family.Trying to keep it tight.There is one interesting story that i heard in school,its shocking and very much surprising but im OK!

Look out people! Im on the road.
To where? to an island where there is full of man with sexy body.
BOOYAH suck-fess

favanapoly

Somehow this is pretty much my worse holiday and it is beginning to melt.I need ice.PEOPLE NEED ICE! Cause usually every mid holidays,we would be going to europe or any island perhaps.But this year seems so boring.Everyone's busy.Sister is having her final right now,another sister is having her practical,brother is in matriculation,and mum and dad are practically busy.I am mostly FREE this 2 weeks.

AHHHH!kill me,kill me NOW! Everyday seems to be a shopping day for me.Okay,sure you girls must think its heaven or somethinng BUT to me Nadaaa.Na ah,not for me.I need vacation. Mind is needed to be clear off.NEEDED! beach,wind,family dinner...I MISS THAT! :(

I NEED A VACATION!GOD,CUT ME SOME SLACK HERE.

show no pity

I had the most worst experience.My mum's bag almost got snatched by 2 malay guys on their bikes infront of ME at ss18 shell! OMG! my mum scream like shit. It was her lucky day.Instead of snatching the bag,they snatch the paper.HAHA. But i thank Allah so much that my mum's bag is save.Syukur Alhamdulillah. You know if i had the chance,i bit them up with thick stick and let them be in pain.Show them how it is to feel pain and i would say to them "Nobody hurt my mother,except for me"

D O N E!

november

Ahhh,new moon is really getting on to me right now.Can't stop thinking about it.Can't wait till november 20th. Its in my head all the time.God knows how long.

Goodbye

you know i always thought blog will be fun and very expressive but now i just think its a bore to me.Well,what do you know.Blogspot isnt that COOL after all.Its a dumb spot to write all those crappy thoughts. Hmmmm...i guess when im really really EXTREMELY bored,then i'll post a new once that is when my mojo of writing is there.Since the holidays are already here,im guessing i'll just take a nice 2 weeks of the net.

That sounds awesome,nuff said :)

2 WEEKS AWAITS

My word to say at the end of school week is "HEEP HEEP HOORAY!" HAHAHA.I know its lame,shut-up! Today form 5 and form 3's exam end.They were all screaming and yeaah,it was pretty wild for me.I mean,hey dude its only mid-term.FINALS are coming up next.But no rush cause HOLIDAYS ARE HERE BABY! Its time to be wild *eye brows going up and down* HAHA.I went for the y.e.p meeting(join adventure) at the school library.Pn.Subu(if thats how people spell her name) explain the things to do and stuff.Well,they(members) have to make a team for this sale thingi,well eventhough im not a member,i participate with no post,with no permission.HAHA.Hey,im a girl who LOVES to join adventure :D.

Well,in class when there were no teachers,me and nat was sitting at the back of the class laughing like mad cow about a stupid joke that we made.And all of the sudden this Bollywood song got stuck in our head and we pretty much make the move aswell and YES! Boom Boom Pow was there too.hahaha. It was a very awesome way to end our day in school :D

I really hope we as in my family and me will go somewhere during this 2 weeks of holidays.If we are not going anywhere,im going to die,ALIVE!? HAHA But actually we plan to go to this sekeping serendah,a camping site that has a waterfall and also swimming pools.The waterfall is just a walking distance.I know what are you people thinking."How can there be a swimming pool at a camping site?" Well,Its actually a camping site with a glass-shed house that we will stay and has this swimming pool,a barbeque place and its in the middle of the woods for your information.Isnt it cool? haha. I hope the plan will work out. Well why don't we pray for it :)

Okay,food is coming to me,Ahh the nice smell.....Hmmmmmm.Okay then.Toodles

sunshine

For some reason,i feel lucky.Lucky to have a friend,close friends and the nicest family.I am grateful,really for what has happen to my life.Eventhough the flashbacks keeps coming,which hurts but i guess i just stood up to myself.I became strong with ofcourse my friends help,thats a self-embrace.Uhhh,all i want to say is thank you.Thank you for putting this up on me and thank you for leaving me alone,i appreciate it,sincerely i do.Hey,life is a up and down season.Its full of episode with sadness and happiness.That is how i deal with my life,by embracing it peacefully.

And that is why my blog's tittle is A Lifeless writer. I am lifeless. :)

Talent is all we need

I have to say,honestly i can't believe that kris allen won over Adam lambert.I thought adam was the sweetheart but i guess it turns out to be kris all along.He has a very good voice,acoustic version. This i have to say,he is cuter and hottier than adam lambert.Du-uhhh.Adam is more to gay-ish type.Haha.Okay,moving on aliah.

You know,im actually here to congratulate you for having what you want since deperate year which is 2008.You really deserve it and it is really meant to be.I wish you the best in life and if you're happy than im happy.You actually made me realise that i do have to go on with life no matter what and i am doing it now,professionally.I honestly am glad because the world is big and full of choices and i absolutely agree. I agree...

Well,shoot me already cause i am done.

Out and about.

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!

Im done and out.Out from the hole,a very small hole.Ahhh,stress release,tension release. FREE! for now la.hahaha. Sejarah was my last paper.It was so funny.Copying here and there.Teacher goes to our place and bla bla bla.Talk and talk.After she went back to her sit,we copeid again.HAHA. I really hope i can score more than 4A's. Well 4A's is my first term exam.

ANYWAY,mid-term is now over.Its time for a 2 weeks break. Give it to me baby! A-haaa.

T for Tension

Im gonna fail physic. :\

AHHH,suck ass! it was sooo damn hard.

Nobody wins

Hold your head up high
You're never wrong
Somewhere in the right you belong
You would rather fight than walk away
What a lonely way to breathe the air
What an unlovely way to say you care
Now we're too far gone for me to save
And I never thought that we'd come to this

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

Searching for the truth in your eyes
Found myself so lost don't recognize
The person now that you, you claim to be
Don't know when to stop, or where to start
You're just so caught up in who you are
Now you're far too high for me to see
I'd never thought that we'd come to this

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you're about fly, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

You never say you're sorry
Try to tell me that you love me
But don't - it's too late to take it there

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you're about fly, then you walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins

(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)

Nobody wins

separate ways

Its really not the time to think about things that i shouldnt be thinking about.Ummm,i hope the thinking progress will go away,fast. Cause honestly,im tired knowing.Knowing everything that is happening to your life.

Now,im living mine with an interest in it and pretty much don't give a shit about yours.

Boom Boom Paw

HAHA.Me and nat was singing that song throughout the day in school.Making the move as well.haha.Especially during chemistry.After drinking coffee,we got high and fly away. =]

OH,we will be auditioning for the talent quest (maybe), If there is one this year.Anyway,we're perfoming alicia keys-if i aint got you. I will play the piano and nat will sing.We're in progress.So,i hope it will go smoothly.
xoxo

S T R E S S

Im sooo stress,tention. My vein in my brain is popping like crazy.Woke up at 4.30 a.m. to study.Like what the hell right?That will be a daily subject from now on till it ends. I feel so tired and restless and mostly stress! I can't wait for mid term exam to end.I need those 2 weeks of break.

13th of May

Damn,mid term exam is in 7 days.That makes it 1 week away.Biology,physics,chemistry,add math and sejarah are not covered yet.Ahhh,its hurting my brain.Too many words,too many lines,too many calculation.Geez! im not a fucking CPU where you store millions of things.

I really hope i can cover all subjects in time. I need someone to be with me right now,to support me.But sadly,there isnt one.

Teeth..shiny teeth?

my teeth hurts :( the orthodontist insert a buse in my mouth at my gum,the needle is big and sharp.OUCH! thank god im over that.Now,my lips are swollen :S I can't even eat for 6 hours! and im starving! AAHHH.Me so hungry!

I obviously can see the sun again :)

Pay Day.

So anyway, We(Friends and me) went to O.U and it was sooo fun.Finally we got the chance to go there.Thank you god.So ummm,me and anas arrived around 12.45 p.m. and we met zafira at vincci.She needs to buy new shoes for some reasons.haha.Then,we went to gsc to buy tickets for the movie but the que was packed,so we went to tgv and we bought 4 tickets to x-men:wolverine movie. Daaaamn,it was AWESOME! haha.Anas was like "OMG! he is HOT!" HAHA.

Our movie is at 5.Before that we went to delicious for lunch.I had beef lasagna
and zafira had this weird zatucini spagettini? haha and anas had this pie.Hmmm,IT is delicious! :P We had our moment of laughter.haha.It was soo funny.Ahh,i miss that moment :) So anyways,while we were eating,nat went for a haircut. She cut bangs,she looks soo adorable and cute.I agree with anas,it really brings your eyes out :). Well,anas wanted to cut bangs too and she invites me and zaf too.So then on monday,we'll be the bangs girls? haha.But unfortunately me and zaf bailed out.We just love our fringe too much.Sorraay!

After nat's hair is done and took our lunch blablabla...we went for a walk and then a few minutes later we went to the cinema to buy popcorn and some drinks.After that we went to cinema number 6 to watch wolverine.Ahhh,i have to say once again, it was AWESOME! NO NO GREAT! :D

We actually decided to watch jangan tegur (horror movie) but then its only at 5.30p.m. It doesnt make any different with wolverine but somehow we watch wolverine instead. After the movie we grab a cab and head to zaf's house.While waiting for my mother to pick us up,we camwhored,as usual.HAHA.Well,what can i possibly say,thats us :). Me and nat got scared cause anas was making that Ju-on sound and zaf's house is umm you know H! unbelievable but she's use to it.haha.So then,a 15 minutes later,mommy arrived.Bye-bye zafira,kiss kiss hug hug,Off!

My mum send nat to her house then anas then my aunty then we went home.It was god damn tiring.I was feeling dizzy in the car.I felt like fainting but i guess thats just because of my contact lenses.It gives me a headace sometimes.But im alright now. Today is one of my favourite day,well ofcourse! Cause i am really glad nat is there.we've been waiting so long for us to go out together and yes,FINALLY!Thank you.

I think im turning into a geek.HAHA.

B U LL S H I T!

A weird feeling came to me today.I felt soo damn lonely,I almost cried but i hold back my tears. Today was a pretty damn suck.I was all alone in class,i felt isolated.ARGH! i don't want to go to school,it makes me sick with all those dramas,bad bullshit dramas. School is all about that.Why can't it be just a normal school with a normal life and a normal friends?

Ahhh! god damn-it.

Thank You

Elysha! you are one funny girl,do you know that? never thought that actually is IN you for the past years and i just knew that.HAHAHA.Im glad you are my friend :) Love you babe and keep being hyper, All the waaaaaay!

You know,i am really greatful to have a friends,good friends like them.Eventhough i am sad or whatsoever,they're just there to cheer me up.I can laugh like mad with them,not with anybody else but them.I would have to say alhamdulillah :) How sain am i? HAHA.

Oh and BTW i don't fucking care,Too bad.

Another day...

I got this poems from a blog.Check it out :)

searching for answersthat evaded me for so long,i got lost in a maze of treacheryhidden under a mask of innocence;
it’s been so longwords kept me awakeall night long, makingme restless and confused;
drowning in the wishesof a long lost past,i let my life down,i let myself down;
in the midst of the nightunder the velvet skiesi surrendered to lifei whisper for forgiveness;
so with a smile on my lips and a wish on my heart i give faith(hope) one more reason i give life another chance to make my wish come true;

waking up drenched in sweat

realizing it’s nothing but a nightmare

I get up to drink a glass of water

to drown the fear that woke me up!

sins I have done plenty

I do not know if the good I did is enough

to grant me a passage to heaven

or worse, born again as human;

never cared for what people thought,

never worried about those who left,

never a minute I spent crying over split milk,

what had to happen, had to happen!

what I was yesterday is what I am today,

yet people think I have changed,

I wonder why!I take life as it comes

no expectations and no demands!
with the guillotine waiting at every step,

uncertainty looms large over tomorrow,

I fear I need to live every moment

of today before I am dead!

the grey sky looming above,

rain drops still dripping down from the pregnant clouds above,

we set out on our journey once again;
around and around we go in slow circles,

moving to the beat of the thunder and rain that surrounds us;
as the droplets hit the ground,

shattered realizations lay scattered

reminding me nothing is same

as it seems to be;

as another memory turns to dust i cut the life

line that attaches me to the past

and i shove it back into the depths

where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
the rain does nothing to stop our journey,

never forgetting,

who we are we walk these streets of madness,

knowing that,

without each-other….. we are simply incomplete.

You and You Alone

at times i felt
i’ve come to the end of life,

attempts to change

seems as futile as stupidity;

when the sun sets with a final red blaze

i tried to cross the borders of reality

into a world where my desires met

the dreams of tomorrow;

now i feel

i am on top of the world

nothing could go wrong

with my dreams coming true one by one

only time stands in the way of this one;

my whole life altered

in one single moment

giving a reason

for this mortal existence;

When you talk to me,

I feel like heaven when we talk,

I just can’t leave you

nor say goodbye to you;

So hard to write down

All I need to say

I find myself tongue tied

No right words come ’round

But each time I look at you

I hope you see it in my eyes

The love that shines for you;

searching for that longing touch

from the moment I looked into your eyes,

I knew my life was about to change,

i knew the love that i carry is

for you and you alone

Dealer.

I start my day by praying subuh.Unbelievable i know,HAHA.Mum woke me up at 6.45 a.m to do so.Then i went back to sleep after praying.Then mum woke me and my sister up around 9 and here's the conversation:

Mama:WAKE UP SLEEPY HEADS! lets go for breakfast!
We:Jap jap,5 minutes.
Mama:Jomlaaaaa!!
We:okay okay,jap laaaaa.
Mama:Ergh! kaylaaa,if mama dah siap and you all tak siap lagi,im just going to leave you girls.(with an angry voice)
We:AHHHHHHHHH!
(then,we get up and went to our room)

Cause all of us slept at my mum's room.Its fun :) So we went for breakfast at chawan,bangsar.The food was okay.After that,went shopping at bangsar village(new building).Damn! i love the clothes. I bought a pair of jeans and a pair of blue checkered shirt.I could show you the image but im too lazy to put it.

Anyways,after shopping,i went for art class with elysha.Ahhh,another peaceful mind.When i was painting,my mind feels sooo free and clear.Its just peaceful,thats all i can say.
After art class,went home and change for badminton with my family.It was FUN!Daddy is a pro.HAHA.No,seriously he is a pro.Well,he has a tournament tomorrow so we're helping him practice.Goodluck daddy!

Overall today was all about FUN and more FUN :P

Note:You're making me confuse.Confuse hard.My mind is not inplace,again.

HI ME!

Well,hmmm let's see.School? It was fine.I feel like ranting everyone today,but i controled myself,thank god! During practical,i feel like taking a knive and cut my hand,i was sooo tense plus tention,i honestly don't know why.I guess im just hungry cause right after recess,i went all hyper and high.HAHA.Oh,and i dont know how many times i dropped my books on the flow,i was so tired to pick them up.Haihh..

You know what?

Im so happy that i finally get those feelings out of myself.I feel so good to be happy again,i am! And i really hope those bad,awful feelings wont come back and conqure again.It has been burried underground and it is safely locked with the safest lock. :D

Thank you god for granting my wish =]

K A R M A

again... Its happening to me.I totally feel the same like how you feel last year.Im so sorry! Argh,i hate karma.I wish i could turn back time now.

Come on geek-ian's, do what you have to do. please! :(
Dear god,would you give me a new life and a new test?

Sports Day

Woke up at 6.30 a.m. Went to hanna's house to pick "them" up and then off we go to MPSJ. Had senamrobik after the marching.Pretty nervous for it but im sure running is even more nervous than that.haha.I had to run 4x100 and 4x400. My team made it to 2nd place for 4x100.All pressure on me ofcourse cause im the 4th runner . So yay me! haha. Well for 4x400 we got second last cause the second runner is pretty damn slow.Im the 3rd runner,when the batten has been passed to me,i was pretty ashamed to be the last one getting it so i ran as fast as i could,like really really fast and i got through 2nd lastSo we're not a loser after all huh.

You know whats cute? My mum! haha.She was soooo semangat about me running,she even came to MPSJ to see me run eventhough its only a short period of time.How cute is that? haha.I love you mommy :)

After that,me and my friends went to taipan,the usual thing we use to do during sports day.haha.Went to KFC for lunch.Hmmmm,they just have a yummy spicy chicken with coleslow and mash potato.I ate like a person who didnt eat for 7 days.HAHA.serious shit! Anyways,then went to rooftop,havent been there for a very long time.At that moment the wheather was so cooling and eventually we're on the rooftop so its cold.haha.We took pictures,camwhoring like shit and anas showed this picture of a bus accident and theres a brigde,under the brigde there's a "toyol"(ghost).OMG! you should see the picture,it was sooo scary.The eyes,wow!hmmmm

Then,went to starbucks,for the aircond.haha.It was ummm awesome! HAHA.Oh,and i honestly appreciate my friends fr waiting until the running ended,for cheering...ahhh,how can i thank you girls.Awww,you know i love you :)
Overall i had a good day,a pretty marvelous day,except for the heat ofcourse.Shish.But anyways,today was awesome.Awesome being with my friends,awesome running,awesome cheering,awesome awesome awesome!

OH! i was on my way home,there was this girl on top of the "jejantas". I meant on the roof of it trying to kill herself.The police,the fire man was all over the brigde trying to get her down.Wow,that was c r a z y! hmmm.so yeahh....

SOON

In this particular world,i trust no one except my family. In this particular life, i bow to it for giving me a test, a test for patients,a test for heart breaks..a test for embarassment.I accept the test with sincere heart i do.But i honestly can't wait to pass it.You know i'll get something in return. I hope i do get it.

Like the elderly always say,what goes around comes around.You just don't know when will it happen.Soon.

OK,lets go.

We had raptai today for sports day which is on sunday. We had to dance at the field,under the hot sun,i had fun :). I played truth or dare with the seniors and couple of friends,it was so embarassing and very funny though.haha. After school end,went to 5 zeta,had setia meeting.We form 2 groups to sell some foods during sports day.I enter the classroom with a groggy face.Ahhh,so tired.My group is making sandwiches and we're also selling a fan a.k.a kipas ? haha.Incase people feel hot or something.Hot i meant warm.haha.

I have to say,sports day is gonna be a tiring day for me.I have to go to hanna's house at 7 to pick them(groups) and head to mpsj,then i have senamrobik,then i have to run...Ahh,god help me.I need a day where i can sleep and relax and hear some calm music.Unfortunately,the day is gonna come after mid exam.Next week,im gonna study like hell!Exam is in 3 weeks away,I have alot to read.Missed class for 2 weeks.Senamrobik better be worth it cause i am DEAD tired right now.

Oh,after the setia meeting me and zafira went to smksj to watch MY,nat and sue li audition for their IU day.Sadly we didnt make it there on time to see them perform :(. But i am happy they got through.Yay! :P I should've went there earlier so that i can see ehem,you know who :). Oh well,theres always a next time right? hmmm...can't wait.Gotto be on the road by now,if you know what i mean.Gotto go straight,no turning back.

P/s:Im getting my ass back on the road baby,It aint easy,but hell yeah im gonna try :)

fever-ish

Never thought i'd be the one who is suffering...

4-0

Liverpool star Fernando Torres downplays wonder goal against Blackburn.Im so proud of you,liverpool.But i aint proud of you getting beat by chelsea before haha.

Oh,and i love you,fernando torres!

Dear life

woke up at 9.Went for the exchange student (AFS) talk.Decided to apply to US. Then went back home,switch on the tv,watch mtv,michael jackson on scene,mommy went to the living room and shake shake shake while the song was still on and i joined her.haha.After the song,she lay down and fell asleep till 2.30 p.m. I went for art class today,drew a figure and painted it.I was expressing myself through painting.The room was silent,i concentrated,thinking while painting.The silent is what i needed.I had a good run :) Now im in my cousin's home.Mom is downstairs talking to my grandma and my aunty.They talked non-stop,gossiping,talking about politics especially.haha.Well,they're living their life and i live mine.Well ofcourse mine is empty now,theirs are still A whole. Im just standing still. My life is a mess right now.It just aint right and im here attending my course of making it right again.Im still trying....

the sea is calling

Dear readers,

I am very sorry for the emo-ish post nowdays.Im just not myself .Its been weeks.My mind is out of place,im just walking in a crucket track.Everyday there must be something wrong,there's never A right.So,i'll be the second version of aliah (the sad one) maybe for a couple of months or weeks,we never know i can recover fast.The aliah is still in me but its just not out for the moment.Its 07 all over again.Once im okay,i'll let you know,immediately.Right now,i need a vacation.PEACE!

i havent made up my mind yet

what am i going to do? boy,this is hard.I can't believe im doing this but i guess its the right thing to do.what if its not? i honestly need a vacation.I can't wait for the talk about exhange student tomorrow.I need to get out of this freaking hot country and so as some people,i need to get away.

screaaaam

i dont know the feelings of being happy anymore.I really need a sign a right now.

ARGH!Sorry for being so freakishly emo. This is actually not me.Im trying very hard to find a way out.

quote nat "do you like water? if you like water than you like 70% of me.

today we learn new steps,wohooo! i really like the micheal jackson part.It was amazing.I had so much fun today. :) i drank alot of water today,like seriosuly.Dont know how many times i pee'd. :P yikes!

p/s:I try not to think,about the pain I feel inside..Did you know you used to be my hero?All the days you spent with me,now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore.Nothing's gonna make this right again.

kill me,kill me now

it sucks when i can't do what i want to do.you know...The guts.
Sometimes i just want to fly to the moon and clear my mind out but too bad there is no oxygen there.Pffftt

I really need some peace of mind.Need a quiet place to think,clear off my freaking mind.Too many words,too many ranting to do at the same time.
God.

Wait,what the hell am i thinking? gosh,why am i so stupid! ofcourse its true and i can't really do anything about it.Its fate...I mean,i have to accept it in any circumstances there is.Yes!

What a fuck-up world,where life can be suckier than ever.

in the blues

Had senamrobik today.Starts around 8.The steps were cool,really cool.Had this thriller steps which is super awesome.Izari and muqri were so funny on the stage,doing the slam-dog thingi with their hands and i did join them,haha.So,currently I just woke up from my nap,feeling very groggy but i can handle it.I am officially bored,waiting for my tutor to come over and can't wait for tomorrw. :].

Oh and the song is stuck in my head, :

h.e.l.p

im confuse.my mind is not in place.

what if im wrong of being confuse?

now IM a shopoholic

clothes,clothes,clothes...need to have em. haha.damn,i sounded so desperate.Im not though!

xoxo.

perfectly gorgeous

isnt she gorgeous?Look at her smile,naturale! i would die to get her skin tone :)

xoxo.

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

good morning!I woke up with ears hearing a loud noise,turn out to be my phone ringing.I checked it and got a text from nazrin.haha.he was all "good morning aliah!" and me with a groggy mind was all "good morning nazrin!"hahaha. So,you know whats funny? my sister accidentally switch her contact lense with mine.She wore my left and i wore her left side. She actually threw mine away when she realize she got the wrong one's.After i took a shower,i put on my contact lense but somehow the left one turned out to be very blurry and weird.haha.So i took it off and put on a new one which i got it readily from my drawer.
Conversation,oh and btw,i call my sister adik,i know its weird but its cool :)

me:adik,you terswitch my contact lense eh?
Adik: thats yours ke! i threw yours away.patutlaaaa left side rasa lain.HAHA
me: tulaaaaa.how can we switch? yesterday we put our contact lense in a different container
kan?
Adik:gilaaaa weird! hahaha.you threw mine away tak?
me: nope,yours is still in the container.You shouldnt throw mine away! i had to waste one.
Adik:HAHAHA.

-end-

confession of a shopoholic

so,just got back from midnight movie.It was awesome.dang! i want to watch it again.can't wait.
Her clothes were marvelous.Her closet were full of clothes.OMG! i love her clothes..her dress,WOW! i guess i've said it twice now im gonna stop.haha.Alrighty roo.Its 2 o'clock in the morning,i should get some sleep.Toodles,

xoxo

the secret

been so long since ive blogged. I had my up's and down's this days.But mostly i am perfectly fine,i guess.Im trying to get over this sucky awful feelings which i will have it everyday.Everytime 'that person' pass by,all of the sudden,this memory...beautiful memory came and go for like 2 minutes.I shook my head,trying to get that depressing memory out cause i am tired of holding back my tears...i am so tired of hearing my friends saying "you have got to get over him!". My answer will always be a no.

Anyways,school is okay.Trying to keep myself busy.Today,there's this senamrobik thingi at the hall.Me and nat went half way and went back to class cause we have chemistry,we thought twice and decided not to go.I feel so lonely in class nowdays.Everyday when i go to school,this bad aura covers the air.
Im gonna switch class to 4 gamma,i guess.I really hope i get the chance to do so.Atleast i have few of my close friends there.They can really keep me company.

will i ever get over you? i know im not going to.Chances is all we need.

xoxo.

definitely,maybe

There goes my ring ,
It might as well have been shattered ,
and I'm here to sing ,
about the things that mattered ,
about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long ,
about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong .

And someday, I promise I'll be gone,
And someday, I might even sing this song,
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight ,
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you ,
So just come back we'll make it better,
So Just come back I'll make it better than it ever was.

i have seen things that i dont want to see,i have hear things that aint suppose to hear.
i can't see you...im running away.I can't.My eyes is full of tears dropping down like a pouring rain and im sure still you wouldnt care about it.You wouldnt even realize the pain,hurt that im holding.No you dont.You walkaway,you walkaway from me.You walk...Its a cold hard road when i wake up and i dont think i have the strength to let you go.Please take me with you.
Forgive me if I seem forward.But I've never been in front of anything like you.It's the last place I ever thought I'd be when I woke up this morning.Is it true that you are always this breathtaking?And you're smart and you're willing.And my god this is killing me.I can't seem to move on...Every breath,I want you to know I'll be there .There's just one more thing.

One request,
I want you to take me with you,

are we done yet?

Sleptover zaf's house.It was 'the bomb' hahaha.It was freaking fun.Well at first me and anas couldnt go cause we had another sleepover with our hoki team members.We were trying to make the right decission.It took us a long hour to do that,so finally we chose to go to zafira's.We don't know what to say to zafira after we said no to the sleepover.So,all we do was giving her a surprise come-ing.Get it?haha.Alright.Then, i was dead scared of how she's gonna react when we said we're infront of your house so i gave her a message said "don't hate me,but i have a surprise for you."

On friday morning i packed my clothes,put inside my bag and just waiting for the moment to come.After tuition which was at 6,i straight away went for a shower got ready pretty early and just waiting for anas to pick me up and shoot to zafira's house.My heart was beating hard and can't stop picturing her face expression.Im like is she gonna be surprise?Im scared she is still mad at us when we said no.

Minutes past by,and there we are infront of zafira's house.I called her saying "zaf,open gate,we're infront of your house." Surprisingly she took it really well.No "OMG!SERIOUS?" or "TIPUUUU!" hahaha.She just said "OK." When she open the gate,me and anas stepped right out of the car,ran to her and hug her real tight and said sorry ofcourse.haha.Then,we went back to the car got our belongings,salam anas's parents then we went inside the house.

We settled down,put our bags down ,change to our pyjamas and zafira brought her laptop down and open it and ONLINE while waiting for ashlee and marissa to arrived.We were like "where are they? I want Mcd!" At 10.15 they arrived,we were like FINALLY!haha.So then we ordered Mcd(delivery). I ordered porrige cause i was having flu and my body was warm. While eating,we watched this ghost story named 'the cadaver'.Damn! the ghost was soooo scary.We didnt even reached to the half part cause we gave up already.HAHA.

We went to the room instead and got crazy with all the jumping and dancing on the bed.haha.We took alot of pictures and some videos.I couldnt post it right now cause the pictures are not with me.Anyways,we all got a lil bit sleepy and it was already 12 at that hour so we made coffee.Then,we went crazy again :D. Me,ash and mars went to bed at 5 , zafira and ashlee didnt sleep at all.When i say didnt sleep at all,I meant 24 hour NO SLEEP.haha.

The next morning,i woke up at 9 cause i got few incoming calls and i got fedup of them so i stay awake.haha.I waited for mars and anas to wake up.Damn,they had a good sleep! I DINT! haha.So then,after everyone woke up already and had their shower,we had tuna with bread as our breakfast.Then,zaf's mum made us meehun so we ate again.haha.The meehun was super hot.I didnt realize it was hot so i put cili padi.It turned out to be even more hotter.My tounge was burning but its ok now.hahaha.

So,pretty much i had a really good time with my girlfriends.Really wish we could have it again next time :)

damn it!

Why does all this crisis and disaster always happens to me.Why god? did i do something wrong or its just a test for me to take? I don't understand. I hate being the middle person.I am tired of saying sorry.

I am a good person,not a bad person a GOOD person. I hate karma!
Go to hell you bitch!

Your call

I was born to tell you I love you,
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine,
Stay with me tonight,
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to, come back home.

Im waiting for your call,im sick
Call im angry,
Call im desperate for your voice.

4-1

liverpool vs Manchester United.Im so proud of you liverpool.Never thought you could beat Man.U up to 4.WOW,im totally impress cause usually Man.U will always beat liverpool. Now liverpool is top 2 of all :D At first i thought liverpool is gonna loose after cristiano ronaldo hit for the first penalty and make it a goal.A few minutes later Fernando Torres kick the ball straight to the goal, gerard,the captain score for the penalty,aurelio and andrea dossena did a pretty good job by kicking the ball to the goal and that is when i go WOHOOO! Oh Oh, i pity you vidic for getting red card.HAHA

eventhough manchester united is still leading,liverpool will always be right behind them.

will you come back?

im sorry if i ever made mistake,i know i have but there is no point saying it now. Time machine,where are you when i need you?

nothing's impossible i have found,for when my chin is on the ground,dust myself off,start all over again.

I've tried....

i move on....

it was a clear summer day
when I saw the tears on your face
I knew that our time was up on us

Our moment of end was so fast
but the kiss of goodbye always lasts
not even time could fade it away

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late

I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

I'm holding the warmth of your lips
it feels like the first time we kissed
when all of the stars lined up for us

but like the wind you said goodbye
and left me alone here to cry
we shouldn't have gone our separate ways

p/s :you are the best one of the best one.Baby,you stole my heart.

the vain has spoken

We were in the movie,sempat lagi jadi vain.HAHA

Damn its been ages for me post a blog...

Anyways hey yaaaaaw.EXAM IS FINALLY OVER. first term exam was soooooo hard especially for add math.Mannn,i love add math,i do but when it comes to exam i kinda loose my interest because the question was tough,i actually know how to do but the question just twisted my brain.Okay,enough about exam cause its already over.

I went to pyramid today with T H E M(love one's). We watch marley and me.Ahhh,the movie was so sad and touching.I even cried.MY also cried and anas too kot.haha.It was soooo sad.Its about a dog dying blablabla but mostly its about a dog.haha.But still,WOW! :) Then, we walked to forever 21,dayummm they have summer-cool collection which super duper uber WOW! Its SALE! mommy,i wannnnnt! :|
Next we went to topshop,nothing caught our eye actually cause its soooooo expensive eventhough its 50% off,its still expensive,get what i mean? After that,we walked around and around and around AND finally we sat still at starbucks.Then we went to watson.....

10 minutes past,anas went home.5 minutes past,me,mel and MY went home.So,zafira stayed back cause her mom is not there yet.Overall i had a pretty marvelous day with my girls and mel :D

P/s: Dont judge a book by its cover baby.Its dangerous.Please dont get to tied-up when you dont even know the situation,currently!

shake it,shake shake shake it.

Exam's next week and im panicing,ofcourse. Anyways,i just came back from my grandma's house.Lulu was there and damnnn she's sooo cute! She was dancing and surprisingly she was headbanging.HAHA.A 9 months baby headbanging how cool is that.haha.I videotape it. Here,enjoy.Its kinda blurr but not that

blurr,cause she shakes....ALOT! The one who is holding her,that is my aunty(mama timah) and to lulu my aunty is her grandma(tokmama)






p/s:mommy i want a new phoooone! nokia 5800 please!! :( and and mama aliah lalalove you,lulu alani :)

you,obviously were born in the zoo.

damn,its been a long time.HI!

So,today's update is ummm well,practically its just a normal day in school.Hyper,hyper and hyper! Thanks to nat,happy everyday. She is like an alcohol of the day :).

OH OH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANASTASIA CARLOS!

We went for birthday lunch at swensens,parade.We were the ONLY one's who are loud there.HAHA.Like serious shit loud.Taking pictures here and there.Sorry i couldnt post any cause i dont really have it right now with me.I'll post it when i get it from my friends alright? Anyways,i had a blast day.The one thing that spoils my day was a headace.When i got home,i took-down all my clothes and put on shorts and t-shirt and went for a 15 minutes nap.It didnt do any good but somehow i manage to recover.Here i am,OKAY :)
I've been studying alot nowdays.When i say alot,i meant ALOT! I even studied in swensens,even theres noise.All my friends were looking at me weird.I am telling you,this is not me.But i kinda like the new me :P I like studying now,I even like sejarah now.That subject used to be my most boring,yuckiest and suckiest!
Hmmmm...i don't really care what people say or think of me.I honestly dont.I dont even care,not a tiny bit if PEOPLE talk craps behind my back,even my friends.I don't care! Because that will just be a waste of time .Don't you get it? doing this/that is like you not having a 'life'.

Im trying to get straight A's for my first term exam.I really want to make my parents proud,me being in pure science class.I have to prove to them that i am as smart as all the chinese in my class. Im gonna go now.Dozing of pretty soon.Toodles,xoxo.

p/s: i swear that you don't have to go,I thought we could wait for the fireworks,I thought we could wait for the snow.... What if i say that im still inlove with you,what will you do/say?
Will you give us another chance?

kekasih gelapku?

Looks like im gonna get fire everyday from now on with my so call kekasih gelapku? hahaha.Thats going to ON for days. He is kinda cute,i have to say. :)

Today,nat gave me a shocking information which i think its not worth it ewwww,gross.haha.
Bio was fun.We laugh our lungs out.

Nat:how are you doing?
me: Oh oh joey! HAHA. from friends.
Nat:yeaaah mann.
me:remember when he make carls as his twin brother.He was like hey mon,hey chand.Just getting a soda. How are you doinnnnng.*with a high doing* HAHA.
Nat.HAHAHAHAHAHA.How you doinnnnnnng.haha

That conversation really gives me big laugh.HAHA.

p/s: i love you natasha kimie! :D

Im saving all my love for you...

I think im inlove..... Im confuse?

xoxo

chill laa brother,quote nat :)

Hi,im sorry i've been a'lil distance from posting a blog.Its just that,my scheduale is so pact.Ive got hockey,Ive got to study and others.First term exam is coming up.Its my first term test being in pure science.Im kinda nervous. :S.
Anyways,im super tired.Ive got hockey practice today.The tournament is weeks away.I am sick right now.I got a bad flu.My voice is changing slowly.So i'll get to you when im free and relax :)

xoxo.

you tell,just dont spray it.

sometimes honesty is the best policy. Its either you know it or you dont. Truth hurts but we will somehow get over it.

Valentine-Less

today is valentine's day,wohooo...Seriously guys,no wohooo.
Not being with someone,damn that just hurts.

Well,happy valentine's day to all of you,couples i meant.

xoxo.

Roses are red,violets are blue.....

I wrote this in school.The picture above,yeaah.That was it.So here goes.

Life is a never ending story.
Why does good thing always come to an end?
Like a leaf flowing down from a tree,slowly...
A heart that has a hole.
When i said the 3 words,
I feel like saying it a thousand times.
When you left me with a empty heart,
It was swollen and finally it broke into pieces.
Everyday is a day of excitement,
I waited...but you never returned.
Far back...you mean the world to me,
I wish this could last forever,As if this could last forever.
I never thought it would end this way,
But i guess that is just fate and fact.

I kinda almost cried when i wrote this in school.But i held back my tears,so nobody actually realize it :)

Crank-it up a nodge.

Nat took a photo of me and here it is.I look hideous but at the same time cute.HAHA.Funny maaan.gilaa perasan.
ANYWAYS,

Happy-one-day-earlier valentine's day :D I got around 8 stick-out love and i stick it on my school uniform.Dayuuuum,its HOT.hahaha.

Here's the 6 stick-out love.There's actually 8 but i took down 2 cause its a full house now :P

I had a fun school day.Okaylaa.A lil bit sleepy but i stand-up well. I am currently watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s. while doing this. Sooo,im gonna get back to it.buh-bye.

A long way game

Here we are in my house.We kiss and tell :)Swing swing

He is my number 23 guy :)

Hey people! i had a fun day.Woke-up at 6.30 a.m. We had cross-country today.Mannn,it was awesome.I didnt run cause i wanted to be the cheerleader :)

Me,zaf,ash,anas,and farah went for a breakfast at emak nek's and after that we head to the padang and sat at the edge of it and cheer to the people we ONLY know :P. We're like GO AZHAD!GO MUN! GO HANISAH!...... haha.Seriously,it was so damn fun.We walk to school to pick up munyee and a few minutes pass,mun felt hungry and we went to emak nek's again but somehow,for some reasons we went to bistro instead.Im not gonna tell whats the reason and if you know who you are reading this, can it be anymore awkward if we're in the same room together?You're not even comfortable being around me. Anyways,then we head to mars house,pick her up and we were planning to go to the other padang which is infrnt of N house.And now its N's padang.haha. Sadly,it rained.We all were like dammmn! So all of us went back to my house and we played three games which is ummm i never game,pepsi cola(HAHAHA) and i can't remember one more game but what i know about it was it has something to do with hands.That is lame,i know.But,It was awesome.We laugh like hell :P We were being vain for a couple of minutes.Picture here,picture there.I think on that particular day,We took almost 50 pictures or more.hahaha.

At 3.30 p.m. We(excluding mars,ash and zaf) had hoki.It was so hot.Oh my god,my head is even burning.We had our position.Im playing midfielder.I have to practice dribbling.Im gonna go on with that later. Im gonna go now.I'l blog again later.This post is incomplete.I'll continue later.Toodles.

Surrender,I.....

sorry for the delay post.I've been caught up with studies.Form 4 is not a honeymoon year laaa.comeon...its honeymoon for arts student,no offence.For pure,goshh! insanely terrible.I've been preparing myself for the first term task.Im trying my best to do well,especially on the elective one's. Well,today's school was okay,me and nat were busy with yep thingi.Eventhough im not a member of yep,but its fun to help.You are right. Anyways,i gotto run.I have road run tomorrow,which im not going.Im having breakfast with my girls instead of running.Im no more a run girl,im a hoki girl :) Toodles.

P/s : Are you done screwing people's life.What if i screw your life,do you like it.No right? Why don't i just beat your head with a stick.That will teach you a lesson.Dumbass bitch.Go to bitch world maann,thats where you belong.Buh-bye.

i was bored at a momento' ....

so,by seeing yana's poem,which was intentionally beautiful, its time for me to reveal mine :)

It was the moment when time seems to pause for awhile
I was dazzled and taken for what I had witnessed
feeling weak and defenseless against your lovely face and
timeless precious smile
oh dear you take my breath away
I had tried a thousand times trying to ignore you
make you feel not being noticed nor admired
avoiding every longed moment and opportunity
to have just a glimpse of you
but somehow again
I was being conquered by your amazing passion in life
and leaving me helpless of not loving you
We became friends
even thought in reality I never know who you really are or
what I may end up if gamble my tired and lonely heart
to someone as mysterious as you
fears slowly creeping deep inside for I am afraid
that the beauty you had shown will one day just disappear
I wish I could easily untie my heart from my horrible past
I am confused and frightened for the truth is
my soul longed to know you more
where heart beats faster its time you are near
Yes, I do desire of being with you all the time
dreaming to hold your hand and kiss your tender lips
and if I had one last wish before I die
I would rather spend it a day with someone as beautiful as you

enjoy? if no then maybe next time will entertain you.

P/s : in my defense,this poem,it was wrote with emotional. :)

xoxo.

S E T I A

I had the most fun plus exhausting day! i went for setia's ice breaking and it was epic. :P
We're divided into 10 groups.Im in group 3 and our group name is bird spirit.We had to do the banner for our group and define the logo,blablablaa and so on. There's also several games. and the most fun,awesom game is amazing race,setia's version.haha. All of us were soooooo beyond tired,running here and there.All the obsticles were cool.haha.Wow! i think i lost bunch of weights.yikes!
Anyway,i went back around 1.30 p.m. Its getting hotter and hotter.Shish,luckily air-conditioner are useble :)

Soooooooooo,overall today was all about fun fun fun. Im gonna go now,a lil bit tired,wait im full tired and i've to rest and get ready for hoki tomorrow WHILST watching gossip girl.Ummm i'l blog again when im around.

xoxo,aliah.

ATTENTION

i am not moving to apiit. CONFIRM!

Sorry,but im not happy with it.DAMN! looks like im gonna spend the whole year there.It couldnt be that bad right? hmph.

can't life get any suckier?

you said "we can be friends"

How are we gonna be friends if you're not comfortable being around me?

i honestly don't understand.

i like big butts and i cannot lie,no other brothers can't deny.....

yo yoo yoooo.haha.sorry,im a lil bit hyper right now :P

Soooooooo...jeng jeng jeng,school was fun today :) Things has been a cycle-round for me nowdays.Its normal :). Nat was brading my hair today during sejarah class.She did it like more than 5 times cause she couldnt get it right and lastly she gave up.hahaha.She's like "daaaammnnlaaa!i'll promise to do it tomorrow during sivik." Im like"yeaah,okaay nat,chill." haha. Oh Oh Oh...during rehat time,nat was like"aliah,aliah,aliah..to the right,to the right." Im like"right?..*a long pause* ohhhhh,O.M.G! haha."

YEAHH! you know what does it mean? go figure :)

You,
When you stand under the sun,your face just glow like a star is shining,
Your eyes sparkle like a diamond when i stare,
Are you my silver lining?

created by me :D

Toodles!xoxo

Moon,please forget to fall down.

some people go through their up's and down's. To me,that's just a test that has been given .We cried,we break-down...all of us has been through a hard time.Even i've been through a hard time.Well acually several time and i guess i made through the finishing line and here i am,being okay.The only exact words to say is hold on,cause you know you can make it.

It some point,i learn the lesson from a song.A beautiful song.

Mother-Ucker.

so,today school starts from 1 week of relax holidays. During the hols,i only went out once and the rest of the days i sat at home and it felt great acually.You know,home sweet home,right?
Anyways,today's school was okay,quite boring but nat influence me of being hyper so i was so hyper in class and im not surprise cause im always hyper in school :). I miss zafira though,she's in terengganu having her own sweet time.Lucky she'll be here another 2 weeks before she shift.I don't know how am i gonna survive when she shift.Hmmm,she just make my day bright.People,dont get me wrong,im not a lesbian,im straight.haha. Yikes,gotto run.Its time for me to pray.Im a good girl now :) toodles. xoxo

standing in the rain

Quote jamie scott "People say no.We all fall sometimes,get burned sometimes,get cut wide open.Thought you'd learn by now.So why you want to do this,why you want to fall,why you keep pretending to make sense of it all.So take the chains off your world cause they ain't gonna do you well.Take the lock from your heart,open it 'cause it ain't hard....It ain't hard."

I kinda learn something from it.You got to keep your love wide and im gonna do that.Im gonna keep moving on and keep my mind open...YEAH BABY! im done pretending. :)

rain drops are falling on my head.

So i went for hockey today at turf with all of the members.Played pretty well ,just for today.We were playing in the rain,daang it was super duper fun fun fun,FUN.Me,sara,anas,hanisah,farah,alyaa sat on the field near the golie and played with the rain for a moment.When the ball came we quickly sat-up and ran and guard the gol.haha.Ahhhh,im starting to love hockey.OH, syaqir hit the ball and yeah it hit my stomach.damnn the pain was OUCH! At the moment there i suffocated,i can't breathe but i tried so yeah im here,i survive,yay! Alhamdulillah :) Today was very exhausting.I feel really tired right.Im gonna doze off now.Hibernate for few minutes.toodles

ps:hockey is getting fun and funn! :P

Havock

i never knew things will get this complicated. its not how i expected it to be. I hope it wont go long.

Anyways,today is pretty much a hectic day,for now. I woke up at 10.30,took a shower and waited till 11.30,thats when my first tuition of the day starts.I had add math tuition in the morning.After that,i quickly get dress to accompany my sisters and brother.First we send my first sis to the dentist,then we went to BSN,its a bank in ss15.My brother needed to do something.Anyways,then my sis called to pick her up in 2o minutes time.After my brother had done with his thing,i decided to drive thru McD,pick-up Mcflurry-oreo.On our way there,my sister called again and said,im done,come pick me up NOW and i said okay. We still went to McD though. Then,my sister called again asking where are we.I said,we're almost ther BUT acually we're still in ss15,McD.The dentist is in taipan.I think she called around 5 times,if im not mistaken.The last 2 calls i didnt pick-up cause im out of reasons.haha.When we got there,she is super duper mad.All of us were quiet cause us 3 siblings are scared of her.haha.Weird much.Anyways,we're okay now :).Oh and i forgot to do my physics homework so i did it in the car.I got all wooozy and i stop and quit and didnt continue doing it at home.Im suppose to have physics tuition today but the tutor didnt come.Im like YES! haha.Oh well,gtg. Im going jogging with my mom and my sis.I'll get back you later.Toodles.

apiit,im coming!

im officially done with SU. It sucks and boring and full of wannabe's. Im up for apiit and i can't wait. Im not sad leaving SU,not a tiny bit.Im sorry dudets,its my life and im living it with full of laughter,not full of hatred. You can continue being the live one's,i dont even care anymore.Have fun,toodles.

a break is officially needed

tuition totally sucks! i have 3 tuition tomorrow in one day.Thats beyond mad.I need a break maaan.Lets pray i'll survive,alright?

ps:why don't you get a life? oh wait, im sorry you already have one which is expiring anytime soon, yikes!

Toodles.xoxo.

go home.

well,well,well, look who brought back that big old bitch. No,wait look who came back.

drama queen,you suck!

i am done with all the dramas .It makes me sick. If you people want to make a scene,go find some other planet to do so. what an asshole jackass.Talk craps,bullshit man...BULLSHIT! Just go to hell and live with it. Toodles.

Changeling

Oh oh, You people should watch the movie,changeling. Its about a mother who lost her son and everyone wont tell the truth until she found the truth herself.I mean she sacrifise her life for her son.The police even put her in the psychopath hospital for god sakes.But in the end theres this one boy decided to confront the detective and told him what happen,the truth.
Quote Roger Ebert,chicago sun-times :

"It has not a single unnecessary stylistic flourish.No contrived dramatics.No shocking stunts. "

cherish it

one lesson i've learned from a movie today , life isnt measured in minutes but in moments. The movie,a curious case of benjamin button, its a very touching movie. :) By watching the movie,it just makes me want to cherish the life i have right now.

fishy

ish,gilaa macam fuck tak ajak. haaa kan dah kena semua bm language.

The show.

Sorry for the delay post.im abit caught-up at the moment,pretty busy with the family.So i went to Port Dickson yesterday with my family.lets just say its an accidentally-plan trip. Here where it all started.We were having our breakfast at nirvana restaurant in bangsar and all of the sudden my mum started talking about 'where are we gonna go during this holiday'.So all of us have nothing to say cause we're actually planning to go to sekeping serendah in rawang.They jusr have the best stay! Anyways,then my mum said "why dont we go a day trip to p.d? it'll be fun."
In an excited way i said "LETS!" :D All of us started to be excited.So, after we had our lovely breakfast,we straight away went home with my mom's new BMW car :). When we reached home,we make our express-pack and shoot to p.d. On our way there,we stopped at ss15 to but some magazines and a few minutes later sara called.She ajak me pegi pyramid but unfortunately i cant.Im like SHIT!alaaaaa, i wanna go but im already on my way.She's like i ajak anas.I said "woah! haha.".So,we never thought that the road will be filled with cars but unfortunately yeah.haha.when we got there humas are everywhere.i mean EVERYWHERE! There were LOADS of indians.No offence,not being racist or anything but them without their t-shirts on,EWWWWW!
Anyways,we had fun.I went kayak-ing with my dad.I injured my thumb,damn its painful right now.haha. Im so happy i have no tuition today.yes! oh,i have to start studying,first term exam is not gonna be easy.oh well,i'l post again later. toodles.

it take's two

why can't you just open your eyes and realize what you've done to my heart.

Run

i could have a long way to run but i guess the path is short and whenever i run,my mind is always on you. For some reason i just realize that.

the one with mama aliah

I've been warming up myself with couple of activities.Not sure whether i should list all of them.Anyways,i played hoki semalam semalam with all of the hoki members and i never knew hoki would be fun.I mean fun,fun! i played the last men part(defender). The ball went fast and hit my foot but i dont really feel anything.First i felt incredible.haha. The day after that i went to school with a normal feet with shoes on it.When i got home ,settle down,took a shower and all,then, when i was about to walk,i felt the pain.IT HONESTLY HURTS! no kidding.A few minutes later my whole body went numb because of the muscles,thats what my dad a.k.a doctor of the day said.On that night,my dad massage my whole body and today i felt great slash fresh :P.im gonna for a jog this evening with my mum to warm-up my body for tomorrow.im going to turf.im pretty excited for the friendly match.Wow! im acually looking foward to it cause usually the one thing i'll be looking foward to is going for olahraga.I guess i have found my thing :).

I acually just got back from syazwan's house.I saw lulu, the cutest baby in the world! i kissed her cheek for god knows how many.haha.introducing lulu Alani my most favourite niece :D ILY MY LULU.

THE HEART OF AN OCEAN

So,i watch titanic today.I can't even remember the story before but now i do.
I cried with my sister.The movie was just inspiring,amazing,beautiful.Nothing on earth can rival the epic spectacle and breathtaking grandeur of titanic.This love story..there is no words to describe cause its just so beautiful. The actor is Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate winslet.They were accident-lovers in that movie. Stupid iceberg ruin the ship.Damn you!

This was the necklace by rose's fiancee.

Its called the heart of the ocean.

With love,

aliah.