silents.

i cant conceal my feelings. But what good is love when it keeps hurting me.

something is not right.Nothing is right at the moment.Can't think,can't speak,can't talk...silents. God is sending me signs everywhere.I wonder why.

Along the side walk

theres is nothing much to blog.School was weird,friends were high,life is okay,memories are gone,study is there,blablablabla

Ive been pretty damn tired nowdays.I dont go online much,somehow it just bore me out. Ofcourse there's some suck-up stories to read or to hear or to look-up,gossips everwhere.Oh you know i went shopping and i bought....ahh forget it.I've change. im not the hey-ho-little girl who love to laugh and jokes about alot of things no more. i really wish i could have the old me back. eversince december 2008,life has been a total crap until someone came along the way.

resolution: stop being emo-ish and go boogie down.yeaaaah!

Amer's poem.

Everyday when i wake up,
i'll see your face smiling,
ever since we broked up,
all i see is you crying.

Why did this happen to us,
why did the fate brought us together,
my heart broked like a shattered glass,
but my love for you is still forever.

It makes me sad
seeing you with another guy,
it makes me mad
when you are telling lies.

To be continue....

p/s : Writen by Amer Hakimin

isnt it awesome? :P

pleasant day

i don't aim for the moon,i aim for the stars.

You know,something just strike my mind.Im beginning to feel really really good.
I mean,im really achiving something that i though i couldnt.This is really really awesome. The word 'really' is everywhere now. Im heading somewhere good.I dont care about that stupid matter no more. Let it be,let them be.God is great and lead me straight. Im happy :) and school was Fuh-ny todaay.OMG! nat,i solute you for giving word-punch to Ros chai.She's a bitch,i know. Dayuuuum,you people should've seen the fight. HAHA. it was good to feel alive again.

Life is tough to handle.For what ive seen in these world,none of it is easy. Happy,sad,bored,tired, all of it is in me right now. I have a problem,whereby i dont share because i dont think its a big deal,But from there i knew it is now. I dont know where to go,where to cry. I dont what to do.Far and for most,i am lost.
I need a day..a day for me to think. What do i want?because trust me,the thinking..not easy.Nope! Everyday,i face it.Everyday is weird.Everyday is difficult to cop.Everyday SUCKS. Nothing goes right EVERYDAY. Its just not what you expected,its not what i expected. The only place i can lay my head on is home and my sister. Its good to know that i have someone waiting for me to come home and talk to me cause in school,to people im just a ghost,invisable...DONE

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Im tired of being patient.Im tired of giving in,all the time.In my head,i always say "alaa,its just a small problem.No biggie." well i guess i was wrong,Too wrong.Im not a ghost who fly around,Am i a paper? that has been blown by the wind and its clear that nobody ran to catch me,not even the closes one's. Im just a statue with sad smile on. Im a....

Totally rufus

So near yet so far.

I think i might have found someone. Someone that is good,someone that is sincere of what his doing and i might have a slight feelings to that stranger.Eventhough its just a moment of period that we met,the sparks is there.

Im glad,totally.